droogles (droogles) wrote,

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Onward and Up Yours

Treating my brainrot by doing as little as possible is working. I feel pretty darned good.

In addition to watching copious amounts of television (mostly Sopranos tapes) I am attempting to keep all my conversations to under 5 minutes.

I learned a lot of new stuff about my thalamic pain syndrome from this article. One of the points that hit home hard is the observation that thalamic pain usually hits minutes after the stimulus. In most TPSer's the stimulus is touch. In my case the stimulus is primarily conversation.

This delayed pain sets up an unstable feedback loop. When I talk I often end the conversation when I begin to feel pain or when pain becomes too intense to continue. By this time I am way past my trigger threshold. The instant I feel pain, I have overshot my threshold and the pain will continue to build, still lagging the stimulus. If the pain hit the instant I hit my conversation threshold, I could stop and the pain should start to recede right away. Instead I overshoot and must suffer quite a while.

By limiting conversations to around 5 minutes I stop talking before I feel the pain, and usually before I hit my threshold, so I don't feel pain. By avoiding pain fairly completely I have been rebuilding my neurological reserves. My neurons aren't being constantly irritated.

The danger in feeling good is that I'll see it as a sign that I should dive into some project with my usual enthusiasm. This results in a big crash.

Most people have to push themselves to hit their limitations. Mine are constantly in my face.

Good thing I am a huge fan of living.
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